Size of the fight in the dog

What counts is not necessarily the size of the dog in the fight – it’s the size of the fight in the dog. – Barry McGuigan

I certainly don’t have the fight in me any more right now. When someone shows they lack integrity and instead shows you how self-centred and inconsiderate they are, you have to question how much fight you have in you to deal with it. Is it much simpler to walk away sometimes?

I like upfront and honest people, not those that would see me waste my time and effort for an outcome they have influence over. That just makes me feel like a puppet; strings pulled, a head full of wood and a heart that doesn’t beat, just unnecessarily dancing for someone else’s entertainment. What a joke.

Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength. – Arnold Schwarzenegger

I have my values and I have my limits. I stood up for something that I objected to and made a lot of noises and others made noises with me; people agreed the situation was unjustified and inconsiderate of the opinions of young people but what was the result? A change in the closed mindset of the protagonist causing said issues? A consideration for those affected by poor decision making? A sterling effort made to ensure the continuation and prosperity for all? Pfft, no! Harassment.

That’s one thing you learn in sports. You don’t give up; you fight to the finish. – Louis Zamperini

I learnt very early on in my youth to take control of the “fight“. That I, in some unconstricted way, can choose to keep going or to end it on my terms. So, I ended this on my terms. I learnt long ago that there are people out there who won’t stop until you’ve faced humiliation, until you’ve been removed from the “situation“, until you’ve been truly beaten and the pathetic shallow “victory” can be theirs. Then they’ll move on to the next person, then the next, then the next, then, eventually when there’s very few left, wonder where everyone has gone. They crave the chaos they cause, without an empathic consideration for those affected by their damage.

Sometimes, you get tired of fighting. I think you just sort of come to this realization that yes, that you will get tired, but that doesn’t mean that you can give up the fight. – Jesmyn Ward

At least I know I didn’t sit idly by. That I said something. I tried to do something. I went to the higher ups, the “powers that be“, but sadly, they too showed themselves to lack integrity. Where is the faith in our leaders, when our leaders won’t listen? I pity this world when the voices of young people are not considered anymore. We’re striving to be the generation that empowers the youth when really, we still consider ourselves to know what’s best for them…

So, I’ve given up something I’ve loved and loved for a long long time. Time, effort, energy has been spent in this but right now, I can see that in this situation it is better for me to walk away, no longer allowing the “puppet master” to manipulate and try to control; it’s wearing, especially when you know they won’t give in. You’ve become their focus, their target and eventually, you’ll become their “victory” when they decided where you’re to be in the game of theirs.

I think it’s a dangerous thing for anyone to have power over other people. – Jesse Ball

The one lesson I have yet to learn and accept in this life is, whilst respect for others may have been diminished by their attitudes, opinions and actions, I shouldn’t let that deter me from doing what I enjoy. Of course, it leaves a sour taste and a weakness of the stomach, but I need to get over their agendas, their self motivations and their falseness to find the love again in the activity. I am stubborn in the sense that I won’t return to something or someone if faith and respect is lost, even if that thing is just a small part of a bigger picture. That is when I know I’ve truly lost the “fight“.

No matter what it is, pick yourself up and go on to the next project. – Shelley Duvall

What I do know and can do, is start again elsewhere. I have done it several times before, why should this time be any different?

So yes, life has certainly been interesting of late. I just need a rest from it all. Picking myself up just seems to be getting harder and harder to do.

So it’s like starting over again, but I look forward to the challenge. – Lee Majors

-Just Joanne

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